I always talk about how I’ve learned a lot of things over the course of my fitness journey… and I have- without a doubt. But I’ve also learned a lot over the course of my life’s journey- one I’ve been on for 22 years. The one thing everyone always warns you about is not to wear your heart on your sleeve. To be honest, it’s in my very nature and I can’t help it. To give 110% no matter what. To do everything in love. The only problem? By doing that, you leave yourself susceptible to getting hurt. It’s up to you to decide if it’s worth it.
No one is ever going to prepare you for the things life will throw at you and until you are fully comfortable with yourself and who you have become, you most likely won’t be able to handle it like you want to. Life is deceptive- things can seem perfect and all of a sudden you’re hit with the truth. You’ll never be fully prepared for that.
I’m still learning about myself. I’m still working on being the best me I can be. I made a post this past week about being a work-in-progress and sometimes it feels like I will always be one. You know what? That’s okay. I’m not perfect, nor can I be moulded to be. This past week has been a very hard week for me… but I’ve become such a strong woman which has helped me deal with it better than I ever thought I could. I am most definitely still struggling and I still have lows- very low lows. I don’t want anyone to think that I have my whole life together because I most definitely do not. I’ve found though, that if you live every day truthfully to yourself, the end result will always be inner happiness.
The moral of this post (I know it always seems like I’m rambling about some random life philosophies or nonsense of that sort) is that when life throws something at you, try your best to be prepared. How on Earth am I supposed to do that, Kierstyn? Focus on yourself. Focus on being the best person you can be and always live life to the fullest. You can’t stop things from happening to you BUT you can choose how you view everything that does happen to you.
I’m choosing to view my current circumstances as opportunity. Opportunity to focus on myself. Opportunity to follow my heart and my passions. I know what I need in my life better than anyone else and the only way to get to the root of that is to spend some quality, much needed time with myself. I still have so many uneasy feelings right now but the most important thing is not to run away from them. There is no use burying those feelings only for them to resurface later. I just constantly remind myself that each day things will get easier and I will get stronger.
Every day is a new day, a new beginning.